I think I’m at a point where I don’t really hate my body, even though I am changing it because I want to be healthy and feel great, it won’t respond if I keep feeding it hate. I’m just uncomfortable with it. Severely so. While many use humor as a way to mask their pain. I just have trouble opening up completely to new people. I try to be polite to not be off putting. I used to just being quiet and keeping to myself.
I don’t post here but I suppose I could at least give a description about why I made it. I have…never been happy with my appearance and never been happy with myself. I’m trying to slowly feel better and love myself, changing what I feel needs to be changed, and improving things that I do like but feel are lacking. I’m pretty disconnected in mind body and spirit. My body being the odd one out. Partially my fault for letting negative things effect me as a child and following me into adult hood. I don’t like the the thinking of every body is beautiful, because I feel that mine definitely isn’t yes my soul was given a body. But it didn’t get proper care and love. It was destroyed by hate that slowly seeped into my mind and causing me to do further damage. It cannot be changed in a day, but it can be changed everyday, taking the necessary steps to get rid of the negativity that’s weighing it down, make it strong and healthy. This isn’t a weight loss blog, but a page to help self-acceptance and bring a harmony. This is also a page to document a metamorphosis into a being that I feel will be in a better alignment with how I feel inside, I’m not talking weight loss I mean modifications. It is my body and it was given to me, loving myself isn’t just strictly making sure it’s healthy and the best condition it can be, but making it truly my own, it is my canvas to do with as I please and I intend to be my greatest piece. Not some perfect barbie that has all the T’s crossed and I’s dotted. Just a complete being happy and in harmony
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