Path to Agape

This is as good a picture I could get, although if you follow my...

Mon, 14 May 2012 17:16:52 -0400

This is as good a picture I could get, although if you follow my main blog you know what my face looks like but this was not very easy to take and when my hair isn’t out or I’m not wearing a wig. I don’t really feel that comfortable so I wore a monster scoodie. This the pretty much 15 years of negativity from others as well as myself. It may not seem as bad as others, and it may not look like self-harm, but over eating and not taking care of one’s self is a form of self harm. I want to let go of all that negativity and feel beautiful without the use of a hat or makeup or clothes, they just things I enjoy as temporary modifications. I want to one day wake up and feel like there’s nothing wrong with my appearance, be complete. I want this photo to serve as something to look back on when I’ve reached my goal. I won’t stop until I do.

Discomfort

Mon, 14 May 2012 13:35:21 -0400

I think I’m at a point where I don’t really hate my body, even though I am changing it because I want to be healthy and feel great, it won’t respond if I keep feeding it hate. I’m just uncomfortable with it. Severely so. While many use humor as a way to mask their pain. I just have trouble opening up completely to new people. I try to be polite to not be off putting. I used to just being quiet and keeping to myself.

…I liek all of these…but I ain’t gonna lie I...

Wed, 09 May 2012 02:40:02 -0400

…I liek all of these…but I ain’t gonna lie I really like milk and a good portion of well salted foods

Hmmm

Wed, 09 May 2012 02:26:09 -0400

I don’t post here but I suppose I could at least give a description about why I made it. I have…never been happy with my appearance and never been happy with myself. I’m trying to slowly feel better and love myself, changing what I feel needs to be changed, and improving things that I do like but feel are lacking. I’m pretty disconnected in mind body and spirit. My body being the odd one out. Partially my fault for letting negative things effect me as a child and following me into adult hood. I don’t like the the thinking of every body is beautiful, because I feel that mine definitely isn’t yes my soul was given a body. But it didn’t get proper care and love. It was destroyed by hate that slowly seeped into my mind and causing me to do further damage. It cannot be changed in a day, but it can be changed everyday, taking the necessary steps to get rid of the negativity that’s weighing it down, make it strong and healthy. This isn’t a weight loss blog, but a page to help self-acceptance and bring a harmony. This is also a page to document a metamorphosis into a being that I feel will be in a better alignment with how I feel inside, I’m not talking weight loss I mean modifications. It is my body and it was given to me, loving myself isn’t just strictly making sure it’s healthy and the best condition it can be, but making it truly my own, it is my canvas to do with as I please and I intend to be my greatest piece. Not some perfect barbie that has all the T’s crossed and I’s dotted. Just a complete being happy and in harmony

Honor your body. It is a sacred, holy temple.

Sun, 25 Mar 2012 00:42:42 -0400

yogapractice:

Seek the divine within. Connect to Source. Absorb the absolute love of the universe.

it’s a goal of mine to be able to meditate. I feel like...

Sat, 24 Mar 2012 18:51:33 -0400

it’s a goal of mine to be able to meditate. I feel like I’m always forcing myself to quiet everything and it easily frustrates me.

Photo

Sat, 24 Mar 2012 18:37:55 -0400